Confession…I often get way too worked up about things that are beyond my control. I want so badly to control and exert my power on those things around me that don’t seem to be working well. I honestly don’t believe I am sinning by wanting to improve things around me, but I do believe that I am sinning by not being able to keep a gospel centered attitude in the process.
Today I had such an experience. I had one of those moments when things just seemed to be spiraling out of control very quickly and I was going right down the spiral with every single one of those things. Looking back, I can be objective and say that things were not spiraling out of control. I can look back and say that things were actually okay. It was all okay. It wasn’t what I wanted but it was okay. I wish I had behaved as though it was going to be okay. I know I didn’t. <sigh>
I am in the season of learning to cast my cares on Him. I’m looking at a lot of transition right now and I tend to want to just complain and whine and fuss and fret until I am physically sick and my stomach in knots. I think I’m missing the element of peace that God has promised. I think I’m missing the element of casting my cares on HIM! I kinda remember those two go together right?
There really isn’t any resolution to this post. I am going to keep casting my cares on Him. I am probably going to go back for them. But I thought maybe, just maybe, if I confess my sin I will move closer the freedom God promises.
Until another confession…