Confession…I’ve never really liked the hymn “I Have Decided To Follow Jesus”.
I know! <gasp>. It just sounds too simple. Too easy. I have decided. That’s it. No turning back.
But will I? I sing these words and I know…I will break every promise I make to God. I lie to myself when I say I am doing all I can. I hold back. I keep a reserve. I am keeping parts of myself from God. I have decided to follow Jesus, though none go with me I still will follow. They sound pretty but they are drastic. They require commitment and tenacity. Do I really wanna go all in like that? C’mon folks. I can’t be the only one who thinks these things.
A couple weeks ago we sang a version of this song that took my breath away and made me want to sing it over and over again. It has rooted in my heart and reminded me of my commitment to follow Jesus with a renewed passion. It’s a choice. I either do it or I don’t. It isn’t a feeling I go with from day to do. It isn’t an emotion I conjure up. It is a choice I will make every day. I will choose to follow Jesus. I will decide. I will tell myself not to turn back, especially when turning back looks so much more appealing. It will feel lonely and I may wish I had someone to walk beside me, but I will take comfort in the knowledge that my Jesus is with me and I am not alone.
Everything, all I am and all I have to bring, I will give You my everything
I will follow my heart surrendered my Jesus I am Yours
I will follow my life in Your hands, my Jesus I am Yours.
Yes, I have decided to follow Jesus…no turning back.